Back in Vancouver Ontario
But now I can not stop
giggling at how spirit works in us. To give me this opportunity to shift and
release in a place that promoted my healing a thousand fold in comparison to
staying here in Vancouver Africa .
It is hard to find words for all that I experienced and all the lessons
learned. I had many realizations about my own fears; completely ridiculous
unsubstantiated fears of bears in the woods and crazy men hiding out in the
cabin waiting to do terrible things to me. My shadow popped up at all times and
in many corners to stop me from progressing on my path and I now am able to
hold it and give it the love and compassion I would give another person who had
suffered hurts and pushed away their pain. I have looked the anger I have
carried for others and questioned its rationale. I feel lighter and as the
cosmos whirl faster and we are shifting to a new better truth filled existence
I am feeling more prepared.
Another gift spirit gave me one day as I sat on the deck
sipping my tea and checking my emails was a visit from a lynx. It was a
beautiful sunny morning around 11am
and out of the bushes directly in front of me walks out this beautiful strong
wild creature. She stood at the edge of the bushes and looked around not
noticing me until I said “hello beautiful” to her. And then she looked at me
with the intense eyes peering into my being she stood and looked and after what
seemed ages she began to walk around the side of the deck. In a sudden panic I got
up and ran inside fearing she would come up on the deck but of course she did
not and my fears had tricked me once again. Later in reading more about the
Lynx, I discovered how very rare they are and how much rarer it is to actually
see one in the open and for you to have minutes to connect with it. The totem
of the Lynx is that of the keeper of secrets, being able to move precisely and
stealthily it can watch the world and see what is truly there and not what
people try to show. I immediately connected with this totem from my own
experience in the woods and of my life in general. She stood there looking
through the fears and beckoned me to tell the truth, my truth, the whole truth.
She also reminded me how when I am still and take time to listen I also know
the secrets of the world.
At the end of it all I was very ready to go and so thankful
I went. Being able to cook everyday, creating delicious edibles makes me super
happy, Spending time alone listening to the trees and the birds, Jumping on the
trampoline and run about like phoebe from Friends ;), Enjoying 27c weather, basking in the sun,
swimming in the lake, enjoying a late night sauna, baking bread and having time
to concoct my plan.
So here it is as it stands at the moment. I am returning to
Mama Africa and don’t know when I will be back. I starting off with a visit to
Calgary to welcome a beautiful new babe into the world, then off to Spain with
Ashley to study flamenco, eat tapas, look at Gaudi’s creations and hopefully
hang out with the gypsies, then we are off to Morocco to get scrubbed in the
Hammam, drink mint tea, work on some organic farms and venture with the nomads.
At this point I will bid Ashley adieu and fly to Kenya Tanzania Malawi
Much love light and laughter to your all
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